I'm coming to you live! Sick, tired and dosed on DayQuil/ or NightQuil.
Just kidding I am taking the right dosage and I have been sleeping way too much in my opinion.
I don't know what it is about this year's pollen season in Florida, but Mother Nature is having too much fun, and I don't approve.
Anyway the reason I'm writing about this is because before I got sick, I have been feeling slightly, unfinished. And by this I mean, I feel like my job-life is getting...interesting.
I can't say much on this topic as I work for a company for which I cannot name because I will get fired and I need my job. But sometimes I feel that no matter how far I've come in working in corporate America, I always end up getting the shorter end of the stick.
Two things generally happen, I land a good job that I like and enjoy working with my colleagues then the one colleagues that made life easier leaves, shit hits the fan and then the job becomes 4x harder because now they're starting to get too far into "micromanaging" that they forget we're human.
Or I get the job and then they have the expectation that I'm supposed to remember everything and do all the job flawlessly within 6 months of being hired.... someone please explain to me this logic because why....jus why?
I feel that nowadays corporate America has changed with allowing more people to work from home, I guess that's just a caveat that comes with the job.
But at what cost is this?
Maybe I'm just going through my own phase of depression that has never been diagnosed *shrugs*. Or I overworked myself so much in my earlier twenties that I'm here now thinking "Nah there has got to be a better way to earn better income, be at peace and wake up knowing that I'm happy where I because that's where I'm supposed to be".
Sometimes I think to myself, why do companies do this to their employees knowing that they know half the knowledge or only 1/4th of the knowledge of everyone else, and then expect them to function as someone who's been with the organization and company for 50+ years.
I have never been diagnosed with a learning disability but I generally get things on the spot as long I'm doing the work, my downfall is analytical aspect of it. That's where I make most of my mistakes because I'm a hands on learner.
I feel like I should have gone into a different field where it would not required me to think of the in between but to just fix it and move on...
These are just thoughts that go through my mind sometimes because I know there so much more to life than working a 8 to 5, killing yourself to make ends meet and then still not having enough....
Am I alone on this one or am I just overthinking...as I normally do?
Feel free to leave your thoughts on this below and let's start a conversation about this.